Shut down my system

I know I'm sick. I know I need help.
But who the fuck will be the helper?
This is the eastern, and even more this is a fucked up lil island,
I can't just go to E.R or UGD here and submit myself to some pysch clinic.
I try to keep myself sane,
But I'm afraid. I'm so afraid that I won't make it.
That I'll lose somehow someday.
Until then, who's gonna be there for me?